i fucked up and lied to the guy i think i was in love with. i miss him so much. and it kills me to see him with the other girl he is with now. but i guess it’s whatever. before this happened he played me and my friend and my friend and i became strangers because of a guy. he ruined our friendship but i still fought to keep him in my life rather than getting my friend back. so he picked me over her. i felt so bad but i liked him so much i couldn’t stop talking to him. well i started liking someone else and he didn’t know that so i lied and he found out that i was hanging out with that other guy. so he ended it. it broke me inside. and i know i need to move on because this is crazy.